growing up


drinking

Too drunk to draw... too drawn to drink

sometimes

Sometimes it's enough to see your name in my inbox. It makes me feel warm, excited, happy.

Sometimes it's not enough... mostly it's not enough.

Natalie's dresses

You gave me the list you wrote of all the dresses you had. I was amazed. You had a name for all of them.


I still keep safe number 34, Martyn's dress.

quietly

Having become a quieter version of the person you used to be, you decide not to speak except to ask for more time to consider the response to what you shouted at Natalie.

Get dressed quietly and come home.

location

when I'm there, I wish I was here
and when I'm here I want to be there

escape

escape from the one of you, you know needs sadness, to be the one that does not

the memory of the colour yellow is there anyway

sequences

We expect a structure from a sequence and if there is no apparent structure then we put one in place
We expect a function from a sequence and if there is no apparent function then we put one in place
We expect a narrative from a sequence and if there is no apparent narrative then we put one in place

Seeing is changing, nothing is real.

Meaning occurs

drawing

drawing makes you live longer

drawing makes you more beautiful

a Spanish dining room

Jasmine and chandeliers

Occasional sunlight

Your eyes

individuality

there is only one Natalie

cake

beer is my cake

fatigue

I'm tired of things, beautiful things

memory

I remember the time when in order to see you, I didn't have to close my eyes

escape

now that I've found you, let's get lost

art theory

theories can only be about others' work or one's own in retrospect, or wishful thinking (Elizabeth Bishop)

hunting

there are new things to say and think and do. find them

ordinary things

ordinary things are amazing

familiarity

we are familiar with the things we forget

things we are

lost
awake
small

documentation

authentic fiction

cheap

I bought the dress because it was cheap.
I've never worn the dress because it was cheap (Zuli Stannard)

travel

more things happen when you move around and if you live a long time
at home I feel like a tourist

beauty

beautiful is boring

worst thing

I can't think of anything worse after a night of drinking than waking up next to someone and not being able to remember their name, or how you met, or why they are dead

familiarity

we are familiar with the things we forget

intimacy

you can tell a stranger anything

self expression

sometimes when you have something really important to say, it's better to keep your mouth shut

truth

truth is a beautiful lie

speed

most people do most things too fast

three types of student

the ones that work with their coats on
the ones that work with their coats off
the ones that work with their shoes off

writing

writing is drawing, drawing isn't writing

a beautiful lie

i love you

seeing

seeing is forgetting the name of the thing one sees (Paul Valéry)

health

Darwin said nothing about the survival of the fattest

perfect word

everythingaboutnatalie

Barcelona

locked

camera

the camera makes everyone a tourist in the other people’s reality, and eventually one’s own (Susan Sontag)

stories

stories only happen to those who can tell them (Paul Auster)

quiet things

the sound of your eyes closing

3 girls

the one you want
the one who wants you
the one who's interesting

sometimes

nothing happens

reality

reality is what we choose to experience... sometimes

Charlotte

sometimes
sometimes Charlie
sometimes Charley
sometimes Lottie

astonishing things

Santa Maria del Mar, Barcelona
little birds that can pronounce the word 'love'
Portrait of Bia The illegitimte daughter of Cosimo I de' Medici by Agnolo Bronzini.
Charlotte sometimes

my love

my love for you is not like friendship

long days

22.1.2007
3.9.1994

La Vaporetta

'La Vaporetta' is remarkable in the context of the contemporary analysis of post-modern reflection on17th century values.

It was made by Cosimo Lippi and was commissioned as gift to the city of Venice by Paulo Maldini of Bologne, for the supply of drinking water at the time of the infamous drought in the summer of 1671.

It is evident that the form and Machiavellian structure suggest an autonomy of relationships or juxtapositions between aspects of two specific and heavily mediated dichotomies. The relocation of narrative in the context of a new and radical discourse of commodification, or of course a reaction against it, is both obvious and shocking.

When Baudrillard said, "Welcome to the desert of the real," he wasn't joking.

Laurenet L'Ager, 'The Art of Venice: A New Perspective and Critical Analysis'. Oxford Press (2002)

the memory of the colour yellow

Spain

juxtaposition

juxtaposition
juxtaposition
juxtaposition

strategies

displace and relocate the narrative
present narrative and non-narrative together in the same place
explore the shifting in and out of authorship
explore the shifting in and out of intimacy
sabotage the logic of the list
drink some beer

faith

I doubt it

relocation

As the renaissance mist cleared above the train station, the relocation of narrative became apparent

escape

Fly away Peter
Fly away Paul
I can't move my legs
I'm late

hope

Waiting for something to happen
Expecting a new sensation

yellow girl

Xanthie Citron

indecision

indecision is my enemy

Natalie

A tale, a lie, naturally

Russia

My cold heart

predictive text

eat fat
lips kiss

relationships

Our relationships with cities are like our relationships with people; both are discovered physically,
emotionally and psychologically. We explore each with our senses, our minds and with our hearts.
We try to understand the physical structure and the emotional territory that unfolds in our wanderings.

We are tourists.

We touch, taste, see, smell and listen. We navigate. We know. We get lost, we find ourselves at home.
History and circumstance colour our understanding, and we construct meaning and value from
what we experience. Only the city has a guidebook. Only the city has a map.

Things are complicated.

representation

what does a representation say about absence?

listen

listen to your eyes closing

illusion

the desire for meaning makes us susceptible to illusion

memory

the memory of the colour yellow

otherness

“To live with the other, with the foreigner, confronts us with the possibility ....of being an other.
It is not simply a matter - humanistically - of our aptitude for accepting the other, but of being
in his or her place, which amounts to thinking of oneself and making oneself other than oneself.”

Julia Kristeva Estrangers A Nous-Memes (1998).